KATERINA STOJKOVSKA

Circle, or Eyes Wide Shut

Even if I had a gift to predict, To know all the secrets, To have all the knowledge, To have faith which can move mountains, And I don’t have love – I am worth nothing!

Universe. Composed of energy. Pure, positive, penetrating, created by the lofty love of the only Being. It spreads everywhere and creates everything: molecules, viruses, .....worms, plants, beasts, people, algae, Jesuses and Budhas, miracles. The whirlpools of life and death, birth and falling, creation and destruction are spinning around. There is an eternal fight between the good and the evil, the light and the dark, the angel and the devil. The eternal question is being asked: Who wins? Does anybody win at all? Is the circle eternal? Who made up the fight? Who created the differences which provoked an eternal fight between the opposite sides? Who gave meaning to the opposite sides? Who gives meaning? What is the thought? If the thought is a thickened energy with certain wave length, who manages it?
Long time ago someone realized: the man is the only one in the nature who has the power to think. Is it the only one? Who gave him that power? And who decided to give that power exactly to the man? Is the thinking a power at all or maybe a sin, disaster, challenge to the evil? What has man invented? Archimedes drew the circles in the sand with inspiration and the man soldier took his life away at the moment of his inspiration. Jesus resurrected the dead, but the Roman people crucified him in return. Bruno spread the Copernicus’ theory about the heliocentricity of the solar system but the people from the Church burned him down. Nostradamus broke into the dimensions of the Universe but the people burned down his writings. The Indians worshipped the immortal mother nature, but the white people expelled and destroyed their goddess. The fish, birds, whales and all the other hearts went through the endless spaces but the man destroyed them. He filled them with DDT, polychloric bifenols, oil, cyanides and many other things. Mothers, fathers and children lived in carefree love, but the people invented the fire and destroyed their homes filled with harmony. God came to me in my dreams and told me to tell people that he is going to burn down the Earth if they continue that way, but they think I am feeble-minded. Who gave that power to the man? Have I seen any use of it? No. I have seen fear, destruction, hatred, fire, death, devils. Vision of total destruction. In the oldest book it has been written:

“There isn’t a single just man, nor an only one, there isn’t any who understands, nor one who is looking for God (m.n. Love). They all turned off from the real road,
They have all become rotten. There isn’t a single man who does good”. “Behind the snake’s mouth there is poison. Their mouths are full of curses and bitterness. Their feet are fast to shed blood. Wherever they step – they bring desolation and poverty!
They don’t know about peace. They don’t even have a little fear and respect towards God (m.n. Being).”

The only angel with a desperate call appeared from somewhere. Peopleeee, where is your love? It isn’t only the snake to blame for leading Eve to a sin. Isn’t Eve to blame for challenging Adam to disobedience? Or even more Adam who accepted the challenge to make a sin? Why couldn’t they both repent and accept their own mistake, so that the whole humanity would have been freed of further evilness and prodigality? We remained eternal sinners and we devastated the Earth given to us by the Being? We lost the love so much that we forgot that it should be our milestone towards life, good, light. Would it have been different if the Paul’s epistles in front of the Corinth people had been our only milestones:

“To have love, means: to have a lot of patience and to be kind. Not to be envious, Not to show off, not to be proud. Not to be rough, not to be selfish, Not to be explosive, not to remember evil. Not to be happy of injustice, And to be happy of the truth.
Always to have understanding for the others, Always to believe, Always to hope and to bear everything.”

There are three things which are going to continue to exist: faith, hope and love; and the biggest one is the love. When I close my eyes, I float in another world – the Universe of pure love. I’m afraid that I don’t want to keep my eyes open any more